Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Chocolate party

I could not imagine myself any happier in life except for my teeth to feel better and minus a sore finger. Jeff and I are growing stronger daily. We're not perfect and probably will never be. However, we definitely like to make each other happy and are forgiving when we mess up.

Laura and I had a fun day. I gave Leigh Ann a mental health day because she has a lot going on with her son. Even though it did disrupt my schedule quite a bit, my conscious kept asking me to do so. She was thrilled. So for 4 hours, it was just me & Laura. We enjoyed our silly songs, playing with babies, and I taught her all about gravity and electricity. She created a song about the two.

After dinner, I had her laughing so hard that she had 3 accidents. Then we had a chocolate party (one piece of chocolate and a few M&Ms) and I let her stay up 1hr passed her bed time. She told me what a great day she had.

Enjoying the simple moments make the most memories.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Why are you in a wheelchair?

The age three has really made Laura (my daughter) ask a lot of questions. Some questions are easy- like "Why can't I touch a hot stove?" Others are not so easy - "When am I going to play with Daddy in Heaven?" However, as a parent, one must sort through your own brain to try to answer young questioning eyes.

A topic that has come up lately in our house is "Mommy, why are you in a wheelchair?" Now it is hard enough to try to explain cerebral palsy to an adult - let alone a child. I have raised Laura as 'normally' as possible. Half the time I think she forgets that I cannot walk. However, now she's more in tune to differences and she wants to learn everything.

The best answer I came up with is - "Mommy's brain had a boo boo when she was born and the boo boo makes Momm'ys muscles not listen to her sometimes." The answer worked for the time being, and she went on her way.

Today we were at Laura's sport class and her friend came over and asked me why am I in a wheelchair? Before I could speak, my daughter very to the point said, "My Mommy has cerebral palsy. It's just a boo boo on her head but she's nice." His mom and myself were stunned and her friend was satisfied.

It's ashame that more adults can't be happy with such simple answers to big problems.

Monday, July 12, 2010

Thunderstorms

I really do not like thunderstorms. I'm not sure how this happened but ever since I remember, I truly hated thunderstorms. One of my earliest memories happened when there was a really bad one. I think I was 7 or 8. It was 11pm, and my dad sat with me as the lightening lit up the sky and thunder crashed the air. My dad put on my radio and it played "Shout, Shout le it all out these are the things I could do without...."

As I sit here tonight, thunder is crashing. I usually run & hide in the hallway. Even in my thirties. However, I try to be strong for my daughter. She is 3 and so far has no fear of storms. Once she felt a little nervous, and she said "Well Mommy I am only three." I couldn't argue that.

Jeff has also helped me overcome a lot of my fears. I was a very fearful person before I met him. Everyone told me how strong I was before I met him because of dealing with my late husband's suicide, single motherhood and CP. However, I just had to. But with fears, we let them take over our minds. Jeff helped me look at the bright side. Life doesn't have to be full of pain and disappointments. Life can be happy with some sadness.

The fact that I'm still typing as we're in a pretty strong thunderstorm is a true testament to how much I changed. Usually the first sign of lightening I would be in the hallway praying Hail Mary's. It's true that I probably cannot sleep through a storm yet but at least I'm not in a state of panic. Laura and Jeff are fast asleep...

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Why this exists

Hello! Welcome to my little outlet to the world. You might think oh yay another mom blog. Well, you're half way correct but my situation is a little different. I have a disability known as cerebral palsy. Several medical professionals might classify me as severe. I beat most odds and might be a little crazy but never would classify myself as 'severe.'

So, when I decided that I wanted to have a baby, I scanned the Internet. I hardly found any real information on parenting with a disability. It was uncharted territory. Now I know why - when you have a baby you have no time to eat/sleep let alone write about it! Now my daughter is almost 4 so I can have some time to write and possibly educate and entertain you.

Happy reading!

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