Monday, August 9, 2010

Reading Phillies 2010

Jeff is usually off work Fridays and Saturdays. Last week he was off Thursday, Friday and Saturday. It was 95% wonderful!

We were given six tickets to see the Reading Phillies by my friend. We took Laura, my nephew, sister and brother-in-law. We went early because we wanted to go to the buffet first. The buffet was $11 and got you all you can eat for 2.5 hours - hot dogs, drinks, chicken, hamburgers, chips, salads, cookies etc. It was well worth it!

Jeff did amazing. It was me, him, Laura and Zef. Julie and Hersjel met us later due to work. It was above 90 degrees and lots of humidity. I'm good at organizing & keeping kids entertained. But Jeff had to get us all plates and food and drinks - except Zef could on his own with a crowd of people and a very hot 3 year old. He did fantastic. He fed me and helped Laura. I was proud.

Then when we went to our section for the game, a woman who worked there asked if we tried sitting in the accessible seating area. It was right on the field. Our tickets were not for that area but she suggested that we try it.

We all trekked down to the seating area. They saw my wheelchair and let us in. Laura loved dancing to the music, Zef tried to learn the game and Jeff and I were just very happy we could see better.

The only draw back was that area gets hit with lots of foul balls. Strange place to put many people in wheelchairs but at least we could see!

Do what you need to

Jeff and I watched the movie, Catch and Release, last night. Of course it was about someone dying in the first few minutes..the main character fiance. When watching movies like these it makes me remember my late husband, Israel.

The numbness I felt for six months. The unknowing future but knowing that life could not stop. Laura was six months old and starting to babble words, sit on her own and sleep 6 hours a night. She deserved the best because she was mourning as well. I have so many details of that time period that I'm sure I'll share with you during the course of this blog. But these are the main things that were the hardest for me:

1. Knowing that Laura missed her father but I had no way of explaining to her what happened.
2. Singing songs that Laura loved but me and Israel sang together for the first dozen times after he died.
3. Figuring out how to care for her. He did most of the physical part at night and on weekends when I didn't have assistance.
4. Having to turn the light off myself. When I went to sleep in my bed at home for the first time, it felt strange to turn the light off because that was his 'job.'
5. Not being kissed or hugged by him. Not holding hands.

It was all a weird time and not to be forgotten. No one should have to go through losing a spouse but we do and it makes us humnan.

Monday, August 2, 2010

UTI and stuff

I had a crazy few days. My bladder decided to play games and in a matter of 24 hours I had a raging infection. I had a little discomfort one second and then used the bathroom to discover I had blood in a lot of my urine and the pain got worse.

I made a doctor appointment as soon as possible. I was certainly lucky to get an appointment in an hour. They asked me if I could wait until tomorrow but I could not because of the blood. In the meantime, I tried to appear normal as possible to Laura. I feel bad when she worries about me. I called my dad to see if he could spend some time with her as I did my appointment. He said yes!

I really did not want to take Laura because I knew I had to give a urine sample and knew what it looked like. She would have been upset. Besides that, I was taking an attendant who wasn't experienced in the medical aspect so it would be complicated.

To make a long story short, my sample had a lot of white and red blood cells. It looked like cranberry juice..very scary. They sent me home with heavy antibiotics. The pain that night was almost unbearable.

Please drink water!

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