My precious Laura

Hopefully, most mothers feel that their children are precious. I'd do anything for them and die for them in a second if needed. I don't know why but in the last six months Laura has been terrified about me dying.  I have a bad feeling it's from my joking about research on death and cerebral palsy. I don't know. 

It's almost a nightly thing of tears and worries. Laura has this incredible sadness about me dying. Tonight she told me she loved me as much as God's love. She said it will be worse if she died first and could see me but couldn't help me.  She hopes me, her and Jason stick together forever and die at the worlds end together. Talk about rip your heart out and how do you even console her with those fears?

I remember having similar fears about my grandparents dying, parents and siblings.  I often cried in my pillow in bed just worrying.  I'm trying to teach her that worrying doesn't do any good but I don't want to break her sensitivity either.  She's just an incredible kid and I cannot stand the thought of her being hurt by anyone.

Oh dear...


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  1. One of the hardest things to talk about with your kids. Rowan is very sensitive to the idea of death also. Last year was bad and I spent many a night in bed with him while he cried so hard he couldn't even talk. And just last night the topic came up again because Meilea was holding her pet gerbil and saying that she looks sick and might not make it through the night. Another long session of Rowan crying saying he doesn't want anyone to die.... I try to help him by explaining that it is the way of the world and nature, etc. and that we will all see each other in the after life. This only made it worse, though, and the only thing that helped him last night was when I looked him straight in the eye and said, "I used to get upset when I thought about dying too. But you know what? I just really try to not think about it. I know about it. But I just don't think about it...at all. I just put it out of my head.". And he took a deep breath and said, "can you read to me now?". I don't know the right thing to say to a child concerning death. It is really hard. I hope Laura can somehow not stress over it too much, for her and your sake! Take care... :)

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