Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Why I stayed

The news is all about the video about the football player punching his now wife in an elevator.  Of course, I thought why would she marry him?!? But then feelings sunk in.  I've been there.

I know why she stayed. That punch wasn't the first. I'm positive of that. It starts off easy - easy for someone to excuse. As time goes on, the abuse worsens but the apologies deepen. You believe he really doesn't want to hurt you. You believe that you need to stay because you understand them. 

Then you set deadlines in your head. Deadlines come and go. When you think it's better, then bam it happens again. The abuse becomes normal in some ways. 

What needs to happen usually is falling out of love. When you fall out of love, you see situations clearer and more objective. Then just make that jump and go!!! When you do, you might look back and think how is that possible I stayed.


Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Mom!!!

I don't think I'll ever get tired of hearing my name, "Mom." Jason says it so clearly. One of these days, he is going to have a long sentence afterwards. Right now, he just says Mom followed by words that only make sense to him.  I know exactly why he says it.

Laura always calls me Mom and then tells me something. Jason is mimicking her, but I just wish I knew what he was saying. None the less, it's the best.  I hear it about fifty times a day. I get a kick out of hearing him running down the hall calling my name when I'm in a different room.

Jason also has a liking to the letter E. Whenever I spell his name, he will say E.  I tell him too bad that I didn't name him Ethan!  He definitely is a cute guy.