Monday, February 27, 2017

March is just around the corner

Jason turned 4 on February 20!  It's hard to believe that he is four now.  Jason can do so many things and is learning more each day. He is completely potty trained even at night.  He knows all of his colors, letters and can count to 20. He is very interested in the clock and tells me what numbers the hands are on.  He can dress himself including shoes and jacket.  Jason speaks clearly and in sentences. He naps about two hours a day. 

Jason loves to play. He asks me several times a day, "Mommy, will you play with me?"  He is lovable and extremely active.  I think his biggest fan is Laura. Jason loves school and his friends.  He wishes that he could go all week.  He also has swim class which he's not that into. 

Laura is doing very well. She will be ten and a half soon. She is getting very good grades in school. She takes drawing, clarinet and ukulele lessons.  Laura also is into the piano. She is very smart and funny.  My heart explodes when she says she loves me. Her artwork is amazing. 
 
 
 J

Dating 101 for People With Disabilities

Dating is difficult for everyone at one time or the other.  Disability or not, finding a date, asking for a date, and actually going out on a date is stressful. What do you do when you have a disability and want to date? Should you just forget about it and move on single for the rest of your life?  No! You get yourself together, create a goal and follow your dreams no matter what people say or self doubt in your mind.

I would be lying to you if I said dating is easy when you have a disability.  It's not and can be awkward, disappointing and plain old frustrating! However, nothing worth having in life comes easy. I will offer my own advice based on my own personal experiences and observations. But I can't tell you that my experiences will be exactly like yours or you will feel how I felt.  I'm hoping that I can encourage you to follow your heart and own life path.

Who are you besides having a disability? What do you like and dislike? Who are you attracted to and why? Are you happy?  Whatever you answer, keep it real and honest. Lying about these things will only hurt you in the end.  By knowing your genuine self and personality, you are more out to find someone who is right for you. Happiness comes from within.  You can't expect a partner to make you happy and maintain your happiness.  Be happy on your own, and then you definitely know you're ready to make the next steps.

Cerebral palsy and other physical disabilities are noticeable no matter what you do. I felt frustrated when guys looked at me and saw my wheelchair instead of my figure. I also felt annoyed at my cerebral palsy that when I felt attracted to someone, my spasms would react to my emotions.  How embarrassing, right? But all of this came from my perspective and not theirs. They didn't know my body in the first place so if I seemed more spastic, they didn't know any better.  And, if I felt good about my appearance, people noticed that way before they noticed my wheelchair.

I concentrated on my appearance and style.  Focusing on your appearance doesn't mean to spend lots of money to keep up with the newest trends. It means to make sure you're happy when you look in the mirror.  I also concentrated on having my own hobbies, friends, and life. Being busy and focused on goals are attractive qualities, but more importantly, they are great for your own self esteem and worth. The last thing you want is to depend on someone else for your life.

When someone shows interest in you, it's exciting, awesome, thrilling and happy. Let yourself feel all of these emotions.  Keep in check how you feel as well.  Whatever you do, don't stay with someone purely because they accept your disability.  Trust me, there are many people out there who will love you for being you.  Don't use your disability to stay in the wrong relationship.

Be honest with your disability as much as you feel comfortable. It was difficult for me at first to talk about cerebral palsy with a potential date because it almost felt like I was talking about something taboo or I thought he'd be turned off immediately. But through dating experiences, I learned that they more they understood, they could focus on who I was as a person and not just a disability.

Unfortunately, nothing can shelter you from heart break disability or not.  A guy broke up with me after over a few months simply because I couldn't walk on the beach. Yes, of course it hurt my feelings.  However, I picked myself up and moved forward.  It might take time even years to find someone who fits you, but do not settle.  You can find the right partner if that's your goal.  Think of dating like a job interview, the more you go on, the better you are and more you learn.